Lust, extravagance, gluttony, avarice, acedia, envy, are all upon the seven deadly sins and are some of the many things I plan on experimenting as soon as I am able to break free. The thought of getting completely forgotten by God Almighty has always terrified me, but the ungodly world around me and its entertainment will always be the forbidden fruit to me. I know I must not eat the forbidden fruit, but my unrighteous human ways will always keep me from what is right. As I grew up I was not allowed to do much. I never dressed the way I wanted. I never had my hair the way I wanted. I got older and never got to do the things I wanted. Like Madonna, I come from a very religious mother and I have an extremely limited amount of freedom. We were in the dark and wished that the light of freedom would come into our lives. Madonna was willing to take any job she could get, including nude modeling for artists, to leave the house in which she was trapped for so many years. I understand what it feels like to always be desperately trying to find something productive to do in order to get me out of this prison. Her wardrobe, like mine, consisted of a lot of very conservative clothing and she would have been neglected from her church if she would have had the freedom to dress as she chose. To think of a place where I could do as I choose, dress, act, and leave as I choose, would be to dream. The desire for such freedom is so incredibly strong that I feel that my dreams are far less limited and as long as I am not under anybody's control, the world will always be mine.
In Madonna’s video “Like a Prayer,” she parades around burning crosses in lingerie with a crucifix around her neck. She ends the video with a sensual encounter on top of a priest. After this video was released, Pope John Paul II forbade Catholics from attending any of her concerts, or listening to her diabolical music. I am not saying that my tarnished feelings for Christianity are ever going to reach this extent, but I admire her uprightness on the subject. She was never ashamed of her beliefs, and she was able to come out and say what she really felt, which has always been something that I wish to do. In 1992 she published a soft-core pornographic book presenting her in many erotic posses. This book brought her much fame and fortune, even though it was frowned upon by her upbringings. She was brave and comfortable with herself, which is very admirable, not just by me, but by many girls my age. She did not display her body for men. She enjoyed her body.
Though she has always been seen as a woman who is very comfortable with herself, she admits that she always felt very different to what other people wanted her to be, and often portrayed contradicting characters in her music videos. I feel I can identify with this because the picture my mom has in mind for my future is completely different from picture I have in mind. Madonna has a contradicting lifestyle, but for me, it is easy to relate to someone who goes from being trapped and wanting to go wild and free, and have the sky as the limit when it comes to dreaming. One day, the light of freedom will be shining down on me.
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